-= Hacked =-

Timed: 6:12pm
ytd monring went out to study wif laurence at yew tee mac there
finally catching up on my El Tech i am beginning to understand it le
study wif him at there dao ard 5 we jiu rest
i took out my laptop we see some wrestlting..
really veri long nv watch wrestling le =)
den after tt take bus go home..reach home ard 6am
took out my laptop again
see the benchwarmers..
den see halfway laptop bo batt ..sian -_-
den i went to slp..thinking today i could go out
woke up around 2pm...den i learned tt mumu's acc tio hacked...
liews...one by one we all gt hacked..haih...
den try to come up wif solutions to solve mumu's problem ..
end up..her com is loaded wif keylogger..omg...
i guess she gotta format the laptop 1st nth else for now
den came up wif the final plan next sat i and pa all go pcbunk
try to get back mumu acc..tot could go today de...xiang bu dao
pa ma part tor..=/
wad to do..there's always time de -_-
hang in there mumu!!
when i learned she gt hack tis is my reaction


i guess we must..help her get the items now back =/
till we find out who the hacker is..
heres advice for those who have no guard against hackers
get SPYWARE DOCTOR..yahoo antispy
and firewall for ur pc..
and u'll be safe frm all tis
and cat..is not i dun wan pick up ur calls =(
is i asleep le when u called T_T
and honey..i'm not angry at u or wad..=)
is u think too much le..
miss u worz nv come pei me maple =((
timed 6:22pm
- = The Best Offence is Defense = -

-= Beautiful Day =-

timed:11:56am
1st time blog so early somemore in school canteen >.<
well today's wednesday =)
ytd night honey tot i angry at here..den she maple early log off...
den she at night called me talk about stuff..
talk talk talk..suddenly i go sing..den she sing wif me..
xiang bu dao...after i sing wif her...i dun feel so sad le
i guess i found my own ways of relieving stress...
saying my heart out..singing wif her =/
now at school juz waiting for laurence to buy i food come..last time always i go buy for ppl
now tis time is always ppl buy food for me le XD
later is mechanic lesson le..nid to do a qns...on the board i haven even prepare for it >.<
nvm later den do ...worst to worst let teacher do it nia XD
well i guess i could and i want to stay tis way for the rest of the yrs coming to..
xiang bu dao..sian the food here le..the bastard nv help me buy !! F5!!nvm la..dun eat lo..
i oso lazy go buy...think of my guild ..tt icybao..its a disgracement to the guild
havin sexual fantasy about the girls in the guild when they not around...
ytd he chase away a gal whose new to the guild ..wad an asshole..
and to think no one can stop tt ass..the sick fellow..insults his own father n mother..
oh man..tis kind of person..and no one can stop him...
i tot i was worst till i seen worst now..maybe one day i cannot take it..
den i juz leave bah =/
its sad to see..tis kind of ppl extist
timed:12:04pm
mai talk about them le ..talk about them i feel sad...
well laters school till 5..thank you ppl veiwing tis for cheering me up..=)
its been hard..but i wont like to be my oldself again as well..
the bian tai me, the lame jokes me..the one who call peng and fire gay xD
i'm luffing again =)

- = Xiao Yi Xiao gains 10yrs of youth..saddness only makes u grow old = -

-= HERO =-

Timed:8:30pm
Tot i could start fresh...
tot i could start new...
why issit still haunting me....
2nd day in a row...i been sad...
today i learned..being a hero doesnt pay..
heroes die young..ytd i learned...
i can go so low to a gal dao...
i no pride...everyone mocks at me for being tupid..
i learned..not to stay wif wad i believe...
i guess...after the present..i wont fan u animore le..
seeing now unwanted i am...
by speaking up for something i believe in..
i become an asshole...
for helping someone in need..i was scolded for being dumb..
for doing something tt seems so insignificant....
ppl say i'm just gong...go do tupid things...
if being a hero is hard...i shall be evil den...
if u see tis..u'll koe..i'm an even worst shadow den ytd...
i'm just negletcing studies nw...i'm too devasted...
i'm the opposite of CANCER...i am 360degress opposite of ppl
wad i do for ppl...i koe and i can see wad ppl did for me..
perharps i didnt do enuff la...i'm not good enuff for anybody
thats why ppl dun notice me..i am nothing..nothing is me...
I"M JUST A TROUBLEMAKER, I CAUSE PPL TO BREAK UP
I LIKE TO SEE FRIENDS KILL EACH OTHER, I STEAL OTHER PEOPLE GIRLFRIEND
I CAUSE FRIENDS TO HATE EACH OTHER
PEOPLE HAVE THEIR RIGHTS TO HATE ME FOR BEING ME
EVERYONE UNDERSTAND ME, I DUN UNDERSTAND PEOPLE
=)
- = Heroes die young, Still Evil then = -

-= Pride =-

timed: 11:08pm
just back from giving present to honey..saw her for the 1st time =/
lasted for 2seconds...
before tt..i n laurence went to sim lim square..cos he wan buy
wad..erm..3.5" harddisk case...
den we mit at cck central mah..his bus man dao...
i from my place can walk dao cck still nid wait him another 15mins -_-
so we went..and we see...den i gt abit of $ mah..i kan dao..alot of 512mmc card..
den i decide to buy lo..while still hunting for his hdd case..i shop for another item as well
earphones...i gt myself a pair of phlips earphones wif mike..designed for laptop de..
hope gt use =/
well in the end the hdd case he wan get..he didnt cause the shop closed le..
den well monday i'm following him again to there and buy his hdd case =/
pride...wad is pride? lets nt even talk about pride..
i'm just currently..living in my old shadow...
i'm nt a new man or wad...
saturday proof everything....
fiona called me out...go out wif fen n the gang..
so i invited ah zi hoping can mix teh grp ard....in the end...
i'm a terrible organiser...i mix the wrong group..i hai dao everyone who went there
make them both grps unhappy..i guess..next time..i wont be acting liek tt le
suan le...learnt a lesson..i make everyone around me..unhappy..i cause all of them..
to qian jiu me..yet..haih
timed 11:15pm
ytd will be the last presentation for the subject..
and i'm not even prepare...i'm trouble by all tis shit tt i dun even nid to think about
WHY!
i am only a shadow..of my former happy self..
i guess the word happy now...is just i'm acting crazy..
the truth is..i keep everything to myself..
if ppl are unhappy and i am..i gotta make them happy..
like how fen's fren make her happy when she's brooding in the corner...
i am all but happy..i have lost love..and soon i'm gona lose my studies...
OVER WAD am I losing all them?..WHY am i losing all them?
i dun koe...can someone tell me more...other den tt..
i thinking too much?
not much improvement was in me...
i wasnt the ..hk i wan in ITE...
i had lost to myself...i have no more happy soul....
i'm just living the days..as it is...the globe spins even when i'm dead..
why should i care?..why must i care wad i think of other ppl?
why ppl cant see tt..we all did our best to have a happy life..
yet to make other's life happy..i choose to be miserable....
oh man... i aint speaking anymore more of tis..
soon i'm gona isolate myself for a week...due to exams..
gona pia all i can..for even studies is owning me ...
if i cant study anymore..i'm be a worthless person le..
i'm not rich..i dun koe how ppl feel about me...i'm completely dumb even ppl hate me i duno
i dun "get a hint" or "take a hike"..i easily hai dao ppl i duno...
i didnt watch wad i was saying..so studies......
i guess...if after tt no more le...no more studies..i fail..
even my parents will look down on me...they dun even remember my bday le
i guess..my chun zai..is insignificant..nobody notice me..i'm juz a nobody...

- = Two Wrongs Doesnt Make One right.. = -

-= Catch up =-

Timed: 9:14pm
just back from queensway..after shopping for honey's earring
=) duno why but
recently..everyone can koe wad i'm thinking nowdays -_-
the lady at teh shop "see ur face ..koe tis is rush present right?" >.anyway..something happen at school today...made me really sick in the stomach
SOME FRANCE MOVIE named : 120days of sodom..
SICK AH TT MOVIE..
IN THE WORLDWIDE MOVIE BAN LIST..TOP BANNED MOVIE
IN THE WORLD..its all about..gay porn..naked ppl eatting shit..an old ah ma showing off her butt
and teh remarks at the review..made me sick as well..
"vomitted after the movie" those who watched it before...its a old 1980s film.
xiang bu dao..french de film in the older days..top 3 banned film in the world...
all france..i dun even wan to mention the other actions they did in the movie..
feelig really sick now..wad a bad movie experience
3more weeks to mid yr exams..over to a new topic next term le..school zz
kody told me tis..
"dun catch up to the deadline..let the deadline catch up to u"
tis was in my mind now..now i trying to pump it all up into my head...
trying to struggle my studies..love..and rest XD
well..tml wad a DAY~~~..
honey's bday and pa ma anniversary..
let me here wish u 3* ..hapi bday n anniversary =)
timed :9:28pm
i guess..i cant stop playing games..i shall note tt..
and by tt i shall isolate myself frm online games..for a week before exams.
i gotta focus!!!!!!!!!!
- = "Dont chase the deadline..let the deadline chase after u" = -

-= Special Delivery =-

Timed: 9:21pm
another day of school ..
still have the holiday / weekend mood
my midyear exam is coming like in a mth or 2 times..
projects submission dates due next week
today woke up around 130pm..
ben lai wan early wake up go get honey's earring de
den xiang dao..mumu's BOMB haven deliver..
so prepare myself..called kody..he mai go wif me..
i go alone..went there...xiang bu dao
mailling one thing nid some much of knowledge de
den i saw the post office banner...they gt tis thing call
postal order..can send $ to overseas de =)
so i send a $50 voucher
send it to mumu..hope it will fletch me a really nice jacket =)
den went to school..like 345pm..
den lesson start at 3 de =I
lol..go there
oso do nth
den my project leader..scold me..say i'm nt doing my stuff..
i guess he has the right to do it..
cos i really didnt do much on the project...
just keep talkin talkin..guess its time i should do something le..
starting tml ...
shouldnt dota at weekdays...
there's tis magician teacher..when we 1st entered NP
show us a magic..
he tearing paper..den join it back..saying
"no diploma, no car,no career,no $"
the roots of it is...frm computer games..clubbing
sleeping too much, dun do work,..haih stress
anyway tml is maths test le..guess i show start my revision around 1030pm
sian...maybe wad kody told me..is true bah...he read my mind..
i'm still seeking the ONE cure i nid..
maybe..i nid more motivation bah...
my fighting spirit is completely gone lor..
everyday i just wish..i was out..i want to go shopping mall
i wan go here..i wan go there..haih...at school tis is all i am thinking..
well mumu miss school..and i miss pernament holidays..
wad do we call tis?
we always think "the grass is greener on the other side"
maybe sometimes its true bah..but for me nw..
i have to focus on my work..for like how mani?
3more mths..and i think i have a 1mth hoilday le =)
after the exam mah..
till now still haven meet dao honey..say wad i will sqiush her if we meet
-_-...the online me..and the real me is diferent.lif u koe me well enuff
ytd is sunday..didnt did much ytd at night..came out to study wif jun n sl
till like 2am ..den go back home slp..didnt adsorb much bah..still nid more help on maths
later will be going through cat's mannual of maths and soon
will be making one myself .."The Formula Book" !! F5!! sart hor? XD
today after school nth to do
kody kept asking for the clip where the ah lian all beat one gal one..
i dun have it..den we all go youtube check..
there i saw..there's more of teh bullying...even more violent den the one kody wans
i mind is..wow sg nowdays..the clip where the gal being bullied ..didnt koe the news
oso spread to msia...tts an eye-opener lor..
timed : 10:26pm
guess tml maths test i dun have much confidence in it...
fail jiu fail bah...test only ..i'll wan to focus more on the BIG one~
XD bless me ppl viewing tis..i guess without cat n her fren tt time..
i wouldnt have pass the one on log n maths...owe them big time..
too bad nowdays they nt at school le..no one teach me anymore =(

- = The Grass is Greener on the Other Side = -

-= Drank =-

Timed: 10.58pm
juz back frm school..
today early in the morning wake up
saw my handphone..>>8:45pm
rush myself to the bathroom and by the time i came out
i prepare hao le ^^..go bustop
touch my butt..GOD! no wallet...
touch my leg..GOD!!!!! no ezlink card!!!
the bus was right infront of me....
i watch it WEEE~~~~~~~ <<<<<<< away T_T
wif heavy hearts i went back home to take my stuff -_-
den reach school 10am le...Maths lesson at 9am.
and i miss the whole thing ...liews~~
1st time i totally miss one lesson in poly ._.
went to the second class..waited for my frens near the lift..
when i saw them..i stand up..and my laptop drop on the floor(whooo high ah!)
lucky is wif cover one >.<
during the lesson..the teacher said something about laurence attitude..
cos he keep talk back to the teacher n cutting the teacher off...
well next next wk is the mechincs test le..duno whether i'm prepared for it
went to lunch ..at canteen 3..tot i saw honey..cos pink jacket oso -_-
in the end ..i'm still blind @_@ lol~
when to library keep thinking..will she come msn anot -.-think too much..
didt dota / play games at library oso..
cos they wan do their online assignment..
so i watched american pie ..eee sick ah the show...
er xin..
mechincs..did assembly of a gearbox..quite fun la...
after dat i depart frm laurence they all....
and join up wif jun
we went to the school's pub..ben lai wan order some cocktails de..
in the end the guys rush us...we ordered one jug of casberg..
after den watch one show jun showed me..wad death tunnel de...
whoo the show..duno is horror or ghost.. -_-
something like hills have eyes...
sit at teh pub dao..ard 8
the placce very nice scene at night..i recommend all viewing tis
go tt place ^^
didnt koe jun is so gay when he is drank ...
HE GAY OVER ME!!!..
wan me carry him F5!....
kay kay lie on my arm F5F5!!!!!
on the way to westmall...
honey called me ..den i tot she in same bus wif me...
cos i hear some voice like hers. . .
den isnt in the end..maybe its me bah..
dun like to stare look at ppl de =/
reach westmall..wanted to buy converse shirt...
see all..no design one zzz..
den when to world of sports...
see those and1 shirt too big..nt interested..
in the end juz bought a bunch of socks..._.
den went home..keep thinking about laters the meeting
whether i should i go anot..go study for maths tonite..
like ard 1200..den in the end feel like wan to pei
my ppl at maple =))
den told laurence i postpone it to sat =I
i guess frm the start.if laurence nv taught me books...
i would have failed my CAs le...
so i rather postpone den cancel it..(unless someone could teach me )
timed 11:18pm

Tuesdays jiu maths test le...jialat...
tis whole week...full of LATES, games,daydream nia..
i go class oso slp...haih..duno how to start again le..
thank god there's always someone who could teach me(nt everytime fail my MT cos no one teach)
- = If the world treats me so bad..i rather be drank the rest of my life = -

-= A cure? =-

Timed: 9:38pm
wad a world cup dday ytd huh...italy won XD
zao zhi dao i bet oso..so tyco..i bet wif honey i won XD (1mesos) ._.
wow today at school..i and my fren...like 12:45 still go canteen 1 eat XD
the lesson starts 1pm ma..xiang bu dao ....10mins we finish and went to our class le

during the class andy n kody erm told me some stuff...
dne i found out i was tupid...-_-didnt koe self sacrifices is tupid XD
after sch kody asks us pei him go collect his winning for teh world cup
as he is underage ._. i'm like the only 18 ard them ..so i claim =/
BUT HE NV SHARE F5!!!!!
den we all wen to KFC eat lor...damm long nv eat zinger le...=)
best~~~~
after that we spilt our ways...go to our different bus stop..
den andy they all take cab F5!!!!!
i suggest to kody we took as well...den he wan take free de dun wan pay
den take bus lo...save $ oso =)..
we took the bus to bukit panjang plaza..didnt koe kody is so famous
ard there....those gals juz hi~ him =/
oh ya..think ytd ...one old sch mate of mine fatimah..
got married..=( didnt attend it cos..no chinese of us gt attend..
well here i wish her blissful marridge<<(did i get it right? XD)
well we went to bpp and shop abit..
kody bought some corn plasters...i bought THE CURE~~~~~
i bought~~~ hair loss cream ._. duno gt use mah..later use le worst
F5!!! choy~~~
den i suddenly xiang dao..i have a short supply of socks (liek 1pair left )
den wan to see see buy..nt nice didnt buy =/ maybe some other day lor
keep seeing earrings i gotta get for honey..
kody keep telling me see the LEE HWA, SOON KEE those jewelly shop earrings
OWNAGE LA TT..machim i can afford O_O!!!
i see le xia dao...den he intro me his sis earring business..
i was liek nah~ i gt something in mind =/
wont be telling u all here XD
could i have a wishlist up or soemthing..i duno how to make T_T
dun tink tis skin can make too..oh ya...
when andy saw my blog he say starting still ok..behind will sian
DEN HE SAY MA DE BLOG BEST!!! F5
it is la..(simple is gd =)
oh ya..i told my frens..gona blog abit on..
"heart ppl , face ppl, $ ppl"
let hitch explain =)
ok 1st

heart ppl - those dun really mind appearance and are really in love wif u willing to share ur feels, pain and ur heart =)

Face ppl - these ppl focus more on da face 1st ..(to me is face 1st den love in tis meaning)as long as ur nice..they will love u~ =)

money ppl - these ppl i guess is the worst...all after ur $ and nth else..when u can satisfied them they will start to hate u, eventatllly they will dump u in the end..tis kind of ppl start be cut off frm the start..

for me..i guess for my size i like heart ppl =/
maybe cos..i'm a heart person as well..but no matter wad u said la
as peng told me before..there's always a lvl of "face" u gotta pass
+ u must have gd attitude towards urself and the ppl ard u =)
well tts all about dat..kindly tag wad kinda ppl u like to be wif..and wat kind of person are u
thx..i will be there to consult / console =X
timed 9:57pm

guess tml is another day of school again -.- sian la~~~~~
tis whole wk still projects and all...maths~
2more wks till project deadline
hope can finish the project by tis wk =)

- = I just wan to be happy , to cherish u more = -

-= Nightmare =-

Timed: 12:02am

just back from ying n her grandpa bday celebration
reach queensway at ard 7+ saw peng n dav..so long nv see them le..
tgt wif them are dav,dav,eddie,sl and jun
so long nv gather tgt wif the gang le..suddenly feel happy again.
wif them tgt..showed them some shows on my laptop..
den i ask jun let me see .the recent famous clip
the ah lian all beating another gal...sick ah..those gals...-_-
wads the world now gone to...sad...den ying's stead come over
and we talk..i was thinking...wah..ying u really xing fu..
tis guy is a gdgd husband n fren ..he's quite friendly la =) nice guy

anyway den after dat ying called me over to her computer..
den like teach her how to download SDO lor...den till she explored someone's blog
i see (if ur viewing tis shhhhh)...i jitiao..devasted...
sad..sad dao...the nightmare..its haunting me...
its haunting me even i try my best to forget it...
so juz so scary..haih i was thinking wad to write..
and now i have alot..=(...my pain...
den hear shun long maths CA fail..-_-
HIS MATHS OWN ME FRM THE START...NOW HE FAIL? F5
jialat..we ITE ppl kinda suffering there...and dav told me his fren withdraw frm poly
becos he cant take the stress -.- he's rich bah..can withdraw at will
anyway..i hope somebody..can help me get over the nightmare...
den always haunt me..whenever i see couples tgt...
the nightmare will always flash in my mind >.<
its a cruel world...and now..it has become even more cruel...
timed : 12:11am
anyway..next sat will be attending ying's actual bday
and i must say..ying ur bf..koes how to respect his guest =)
at least he's nt like doing those couple stuff infront of us..
he gained my respect =)

- = "under the fire..u shall freeze and under the cold, u shall burned" = -

-= Hard =-

Timed:8:30pm

today school start le...morning 11am i was awoken by my fren
to meet at school for project..den i ask him accompany me go dover
cos i wan to submit the COM award form...
only the bus we take ..i saw my ite classmate suuzane..lol
my fren kept asking me wats her name..i bth XD
mocking her dao XD!!!!!!
den we follow her wishing she would lead me to teh dover's office
den i saw..no..somemore she's like one of the co-op memebers of dover now
omg XD....wanted to find joseph they all de..but dun have their no.s ....too bad
den i went to the right building...and another familiar sight !
june ong..our ite DM..she's in dover ?!?!?! haha
den i went to submit my form...finally~...
when back to school...poly...den had my class...discuss about projects..
looks like tis wk i'm fully loaded wif projects all the way =(..
now still haven finish maths tutorial n maths online..tml jialat T_T
hmm anyway..ytd si yan told me something which send me to thinking again
but i koe la..she wont see tis blog one =/
said she saw me at school...i'm like so blind -_-
ppl infront of me i oso can dun recognise them de ..
sry didnt see u...XD
today like slighty more things to write den normal..=)
sian la..later must do the maths le..zzzz
and soon we'll have the ite bbq gathering..dun even koe whether i going anot
z
after exiting frm ite we had to go the other side of teh road to take back
to ngee ann...den there..i saw NUS...i was thinking..can i be there?..like in 5yrs time
can i?....z
maybe i'll go NTU XD!!
anyway tml's another day of school till 5..
timed : 8:41pm

- = Hard is not impossible = -

-= loneliness =-

timed: 5:25pm
hmm... ytd went out to town
haha..fiona's guild meeting..reach there about 4ish
went some place fiona bought the bbq chicken to eat
that time i was full so i didnt eat..>.<
den we went to far east's pmk...
i tot there's only one pmk in sg.. -__-
bugis<<< den they corrected me..
they shop~
we look~
den we went to cineleisure
hoping to get a place at long john's
which was fully loaded..f7
so i told them we go down the hawker below
at there...we started talking and talking till i got sian
den i open up my laptop..
showing them some gore shows...
all say i sick ah F5!..is my fren send me one...
anyway its R21 mah..sooner or later de -_-
stay at cine there till like 7ish
we went to heeren..
fiona's project or something..so we wait
one by one they go walk walk themselfs...
den the lonely feeling gets in...
only i and jun..i jitiao no mood to shop ..zzzz
cos like everyone has something to do n all only us...
all my mind is ..playing LAN...den i saw action city tot might wan to go see see
in the end nv go...ard 9ish we all jiu go our seperate ways home le...
on the way home..jun kept talking about results..zzz..results...
have to work harder le =(...
chat wif kifa...maybe she's right bah..i have no motivation in life
mumu was right as well =/
i have been a cancer-ed doctor
tml's monday..today staying at home...my dad bought an mp3 player
he duno how to use..
den i try use...think i make it spolit or something...
my hands...they runied technology..nt make it work..haih
anyway tml's lesson start at 3..so think today can slp late again...
timed: 5:37pm

- = "aint nth but a heartache, aint nth but a mistake" = -