timed: 12:31am

I've learned alot of things from bros today
thank you guys for this valuable lesson that taught me so much about wad is love
and how to use it...
how to channel it into the proper channel so as not to recevie more internal injuries
i hope tat i will changed after today's scolding
so i can be smarter then yesterday =)


sometimes we just have to do some self reflecting and
alot alot of self-discipline

timed: 1:26am

Just got back to home thanks to laurence to lend me the group's $ for cab
without him i couldnt get home at all at least till next morning
den i realise....how sucks i am
and how mani benefactors i have around me
tat saved me before:

- Shun Long ,without him i wouldnt koe how to play bball, without him i would have die at home the 2yrs my mom was gone cos he steal food gimme eat

- Peng Zhi, Without him i wouldnt know dav and the rest of the gang further prospering my social circle and at times saving me @ money crisis

- Ah Guang(cousin) ,if he nv lend me the 2k for laptop i really duno how to survive in poly though he's arrogrant and really look down on me

- Ah mei (cousin), If she nv lend me the $100 that time i would really be struck at esplande till the next day and finding jobs , organising family outings..

- Laurence, @ 1st he sucks and is unwilling to help, as the time goes by, i learn to handle business get consignments and was taught studies by him also saved me from alot of $ occassions

- Xiang , taught how to be ZAI, stay on the positive side more, getting to be more socialable, oso another $ crisis saver

- Takumi/Raymond, Learn me in the workforce tat wearing mask is nessasry, saved me from alot of high cost $ crisis , yet another victim of the heartache but already heal and ready to go from where i see it

- Weepeng, His cab service from his dad and his willingness to join me as an ambassador and enjoy all the moments(at least most of the moments tgt), Taught me brotherhood

- Mumu , probably the 1st girl that i talked online and become my 1st xiao mei mei, we learn alot of lessons from each other though alot of them came from pain and considering the fact we nv meet before, all crisis saved and rescued was only words but did deliver the action to one's self

- Weiling, Looking even brighter side, her innocent eyes which we saved taught me tat her life has alot of more chances not her her to waste but for her to review her sort of "newlife"


timed:1:45am

before i board the cab however, was damm suay,
went to the bustop, last bus gone
went to mrt last mrt gone
sms fynn , she with her frens
den laurence call me asking whether i catch the last bus,
which ended up saving me
after discussing with laurence how he will save me
- Take cab go his house he pay
i went to bridge to see anyone is around cos saw them previously going to the bridge
saw vannessa and seductive..
on war ah.. there are always victims of the war
talked to her awhile
notice tat she was unhapi with the current state now oso
seeing the thing going on
its really painful
but i will try my best to let everyone be hapi
i know..ultimately i will be the one left unhapi..cos i just did juz now..
go eat...tried to kill myself by eating alot fail attempt..
den went to mos..met up with laurence they all..
sit outside mos..slack there...
go in...with HYPE..
go in pall mall room..packed..
tried to get drinks for laurence they all....cant ..went out of stock...
gave up..saw shawnMNL notice tat he still remember me..nice guy him
nowdays clubbing for me...
i go in see the crowd..den i see myself..
its like dun blend in..i'm all alone..everyone is enjoying except me..
how to enjoy..wan to drunk..problem still there how to enjoy..
no $ to buy drink how to enjoy..sober right after drunk..
reality kick me in the balls like a baseball bat hit an egg..
being mocked, being laughed at...can say used to it liao..
my duty is to make everyone laugh i guess or do i have a duty..
is i itchy backside wan go poke in other business when ppl seem to hate me as much
all i can do is wear a mask and put on a smile nth much to do...
i feel after all this...i still am where i started bah.. i nv actually left square 1 at all
all i did was look far..i din act far
seeing how vanessa trying to rub away the tears from her eyes.. i realise..how much we both missed the past..
the times that we all really enojy tgt even though we are so farking senseless and tupid it was fun..now all i see is..i.......
i really duno was i see now...
i cant open my eyes right now....

lockdown from clubbing and spent excessive $ till after exams thanks
any outings and expensive outing count me out
3weeks from wad the teacher said in the email..it gives a really painful yet powerful impression on me:

Put in your best effort and put away all distraction for these few weeks. Focus on your studies and sacrifice your leisure. Prove to yourself that you can actually achieve more than you can imagine. EVERYONE of us has the potential if only we TRY. Start right NOW before it is too late.

timed: 12:51am

Just got back from drinking with takumi and the rest

but today is fynn bday so
though its over her bday liao but here it goes:
HAPI BDAY TO FYNN!
HAPI BDAY TO FYNN!
HAPI BDAY TO FYNN!
HAPI BDAY TO FYNN~
whooooooo~
fynn - 21 yrs old, Manager of the pet shop in Jurong East
- holds Nitec Cert in Office
- Can TATATATATA more then me
- Probably the 1st few ambassadors who din give out tickets
- A cutie pie by herself no need custard or any other food

HAPI BDAY TO LEON
HAPI BDAY TO LEON
HAPI BDAY TO LEON~
HAPI BDAY TO YOU~~~~

- Leon Wong, ORD-ed Ns men, duno how mani years old
- Has a Leon tatoo on his hand
- Same Bday with fynn
- Can handle alot of alcholo
- Same surname as me
- HR executive of sedcutive

its good to see people having the same bdays and celebrating tgt isnt it?


after talking to takumi on the cab..
i realise..
alot of us missed the past
some include

- I miss Vanvan ( can tell from tat day she was unhapi, but duno reason nia.. hope the coming KTV session can cheer her up)
- I miss the chalet(vinvin's farking drunk and door slamming moments)
- I miss the HAUS HAUS moments(where all the sniping begins)
- I miss that time we all sitting down at bridge and drink becos we are hapi

times changed ppl change
i'm adapting to changes i dun even know according to tak..
but i..always only think of the past..
how we enjoy ourselfs in the past..no worries..
juz now get off from the cab.. i sit on the rest..
and realise..my suffering juz begin
which include

from the past till now:
- force by parents to go tution(effective future)
- seeing parents quarrel and leaving the house(affective)
- becos of a tenant parents quarrel and cut the house fone(affective)
- killing all my fishes and realising they were just playing in the end (effective)
- using chopper to threaten my mom in the end uncle use chopper chase me back(effective)
- getting good grades during primary school and getting scholarship(effective)
- Realising my mom suddenly hate my frens (affective)
- Using broom to get my fren out of the house(affective)
- Making me hate her for awhile(affective)
- Mom left the house, Dad go overseas , alone in the house starve for 3days(effective)
- Broke dao have to tell shop ppl tat i have no $ to pay them(affective)
- Adapting to my new life as a Sufferling(effective)
- Mom came back to the house after i suffered for 2yrs with my dad who farked up my life by starving me in the house and making me do laudry(really effective)
- Deciding who is the real enemy in the house(effective)
- Work so hard in factory in the end $ dad lent and nv return(effective)
- Having a broken family that nv connects anymore(affective)
- mom hates dad hates mom(painful)
- nv believe there is love in the family(affective

i guess there's too mani to name liao..
but for me.. i guess the suffering just started
as more crisis will pop up..most of them ..as usual..money / women

my Relationship wasnt a success story either
sufferings include:

- Crying infront of the monitor becos was threaten to break
- Having fear till dun dare to online and face the music
- having no hope in love feeling that everything bad will REcycle again
- Hating to see couples in the street till islolate myself by staying @ home
- given false hope
- being looked down at by whole other family becos of my background even though i tried so hard to proof them wrong
- trying to drunk myself in alcholo but resulting in only puking moments
- Trapped in the past of heartaches
- Lost confidence in relations
- Becoming money minded

i guess tats about it bah..
masks everyone is wearing them everyday now den i understand
secerts...they are just part of wad the masks has installed with
even though u how much hate the person ..
if u need his/her talent u have to treat him like a human..
suddenly remember all the sufferings

here's another 1 :
in school:

- being bullied by smaller kids and snapping back den they call their parents while i have no phone cannot call
- Invited the wrong set of frens to come my house to steal my toys and $
- antisocial in school no one wan to mix around with me
till primary 6 then my life starts to show some light
but in secondary school:

- Being bullied cos i'm fat n really ugly.
- Even ugliest girl in my class has the right to insult me
- being call fool even though i was top of the class
- fight next to next with a classmate
- Crying cause i lost

again till sec 3 den it started to show some light:

- Being framed that i like a certain girl , den behind insulted n hated by tat girl for 2yrs
- People recongnise me as THE BRAINS and started to take and copy answers from me
- Receive awards for my studying efforts
- starting to slim down
- changing from 16X-17X-183
- Getting alot of stamina cos every 3days PE
- Getting reconginition from the Art teacher tat every hates
- Playing playstation the whole study week and getting top in N lvl in school
- beating everyone who din and did study hard in class
- getting $ for this efforts

after this comes my ITE life:

- Getting to know the meaning of Brotherhood
- Getting a few khakis tat will follow me everyday in school
- Getting fitter as playing basketball becomes a everyday thing

after this is my Poly life:

- Getting backstab and knowing underground relationship
- Knowing a fren broke up out of fear of me
- Knowing the group study thingy is still on as there are ITE allies in the class
- Knowing Love wasnt the only thing i can live for

den comes 2nd yr(which is now):

- Genius dun click with ppl like me
- Everyman for himself , U die your business
- U nv come, why should i care, i'm your schoolmate nia
- business was as ez as "Hi, I'm from Ngee Ann Poly , do u do consignment?"
- Money was my 2nd factor for a new lease of life

after a sort of summary of my current life.. which is liek so dammm long
i feel.. the suffering wil still go on..
untill i earn some big bucks tat is..
now all i need to do now is ...study real hard
as maths CCT is coming

i know tat

- I will miss MuMu
- I will miss Fynn
- I will miss Peifen
- I will miss Peng
- I will miss Tak
- I will miss the gay acts tat mark created
- I will miss my old class
- I will miss being a Heart doctor myself instead of being a patient right now

- The Sales -

timed: 8:14pm

its been awhile since i last blogged
Was MIA becos had to setup a booth in school
selling 77th street bottles, membership
and a few suppliers that laurence hooked up with
i believe we have loss quite a bit of sum in it although it hasnt been calculated
anyway..
ytd (friday)
was the last day of the sales.
too bad tat will be the last time i'll be working with tat
evangeline babe. next weds will see her again.
After we close the booth tat day.
We walk n search till we find a place
where we open to drink the blackwood vodka tat kennard n laurence bought.
Thanks to takumi who send me a bottle of chivas though i wanted small bottles of absokute vodka to keep n drink too bad he told me was for his collection.
But i feel it was too generous of him to gimme tat bottle of 12yrs Chivas.
i feel i dun deserve something this good from such a good guy
maybe i am thinking too much bah.

Anyway we when to the convention center's lift area where no one is and sat there to drink. Xiao bo and the gang insist on drinking the chivas tat tak gimme
but i kinda heart pain cos its a gift from him..and sharing with them
den i tot to myself..he share more bottles with us before and spread the love.
so after we TATATTATATATATATATATATA finish the blackwood vodka on regular glass cup
they force me to open the chivas which i insisted we only open 1/2 becos
most of the guys were party drunk...this wasnt the worst part..
the worst part was we ARE already drunk and IN THE SCHOOL..
if anything/ anyone came by n saw tat..i'm sure we will kena alot of shit..
anyway after TA-ing finish the vodka ..we ta 1/2 the chivas till i cant take anymore then i stop...seeing all of them already mabok...
weepeng call his dad to fetch him ..
i already in a mabok state of my own ..told him to fetch us as well
den kennard who was semi dead drunk broke the glass statue tat his teamates bought for the stall..the swan legs kena broke into pieces..
den at the moment we faster keep our chivas liao..
up came the security guard..and tell us to keep it down..
heng he nv see the chivas bottle ah..arbo tio liao...
den laurence walk kennard n other guy leonardo..to the toilet
to vomit ..
while we make too much noise and was chase off by the security
trying to act normal i took the bags and stuff and walk out..
with all the bling bling stuff and my bag we walk out of the convention drunk..
back came lau and the gang..
den came weepeng's dad taxi..
we Had to act normal to get into his cab...
on the way home we all act like we're tired and stuff
kennard who cannot take it anymore...
Foam at the taxi..but was rescued by weepeng's dad plastic bag..
he puke on the plastic bag...den after reach my house he came out to puke..
i went up home..drop my stuff run to the toilet strip naked and sleep there -.-"
of cos i gt close toilet door la..den i slp around 30mins the water pouring n pouring i woke up..setup my bed at the living room and..fall asleep..
was woken up by my mom around 11pm dad bought back to me a pack of rice from his stall..his new Hainanese style Curry rice stall i must add..den i ate and drank the plum juice after tat..i open laptop..see American pie 5..after see finish...
the FEELING CAME!!..the Pukish feeling.. i went to the toilet n foam..
out came wad i just ate..with some still remaining in my body..i walk back to my laptop..drink some hot water..1/2 hour later PUKE again.. go toilet puke out the water and plum juice i had earlier (sorry ah abit disgusting)
den i go take the anti-puke powder and have some..10mins after..i Puke !
this time i think.. i dun wan let it out like tat..i shit it out...
after shit finish..I PUKE AGAIN!!! FARK!!!
but this was the last puking i had..i see my handphone 3am..
i apply some axe oil and went to sleep..
6.45am was awoken by laurence call...
told me to get ready..den go 77th street give back our stocks..
i woke up and told my mom to get me some tea..she makes a cup of tea and i have it...
with the tot.. WILL I PUKE AGAIN?.. den after finish the drink...sms camed
"new update: 9am den go"...i was like...7am ...nnb wake me up so early den delay..
well i went to take bus @ 9am..den another sms camed: " evangeline say the man who pay us nv came".. i was like issit cancel then cannot call me..
i get to the payphone cos my phone is terminated and rang up lau..
we changed the plans to go return stock to eddie( the guy who consigned us quality rings which i'm wearing 1 now =) ).
i meet up with laurence and this is his side of story for the nite:

apparently kennard n laurence got in back in the cab after i left
and laurence started to feel pukish
weepeng handled him a plastic bag to puke ..
in his farken drunk mode his miss q and puke all over the taxi..
after tat they reach yew tee and kennard decides to stop off with laurence at his home..they Puke the way out of the taxi..
weepeng's dad taxi littered with their puke return to weepeng's home
den weepeng and his dad had to clean up the cab like 2hours..
while kennard n laurence went home empty handed..kennard sit on laurence's neighbour corridor sofa..and PUKE again..puke all over the sofa...den they reach laurence's doorstep kennard decided not to go into his home but sit and his doorstep
and they PUKE tgt no the doorstep..
dumbass laurence ..changed into a Clean set of clothes and PUKE ON HIS NEW CLOTHES AGAINS!!!!! xD!!!! DUMB FARK!!!
they lay at laurence house till 12am..den laurence dad gave kennard $10 to take cab home.. kennard who was abit fine went back home..
i tot he will land up at hospital becos of alcholo poisoning in the end he dint..which was good..cos he dun look veri good from where i leave them..his face as red as monkey's ass..
.........

back to the main part...
i meet up with laurence and meetup with weepeng..we talk talk talk..
den there's this lady ask us to keep our volume down..
weepeng who was usual pissed with ppl disliking his actions
scolded the lady ..when she was on her earpiece..
i duno whose wrong or right i see no end to this arguement if it starts cos its a public area anywhere freedom of speech.
den we went to eddie's place.. which was not open yet...when to LONG JOHN SILVERS to have their 1inch thich toast which i only ate before ..twice..miss it man..it taste owns..den laurence the gay ass feeling too cold had to head out..we go to near where eddie's stall is and sit down to have some katong laksa...
later again we were chased away by the hawker operator who already cleaned up our food and the table was empty...
came eddie
restock check back to him
chatted with him ..
find out tat we will have a chance to do business tgt again next time..
which will come really soon..
go to sim lim..
find kok eng and chatted with him lau wan to help him by buying something from him
giving him comission to earn ..which he rejected...maybe he too rich liao..

anyway bye bye zen bro whom i had spent like 2 times with him nia..
he's a veri socialable guy..
which most girls will love to have and he's rich handsome..
probably second 2 tak..went back to aus to study for his degree
will see him again in 4mths time..miss ya man!..

i'have learned today tat..if u cant drink and want to drink tat much
this is wad u get la..
PUKE. FOAM. PAIN.
nothing else ..
from the pro-drinker
maybe like mumu or peng ( who will be dying in ns soon)
i'm kinda useless drinker
all i had is like 4 cups of ta-ing ON the rock vodka
and 2 cups of chivas
compare to peng's 2 bottle of martell each..
we liek heaven n hell..
lucky when i was High i still manage to walk back home
CLEAN..WITHOUT PUKE !.. NV PUKE ON MYSELF/ MY SHIRT / MY PANTS/ MY DICK
they wanted to have tat kinda chance again ..duno when ..but they say they will buy..
i feel its wasting $ lor...buying booze and drink becos our business didnt gain much..
drink for stress...
not drink for hapiness...
like tat time at MOS... i drink so much..and was ABIT high..after 1 hour later i was sober liao..and the problems i have forgotten for the past hour
came back to haunted me..although fynn was beside me still i feel..
girl..i need to have an income to court girls..arbo no $ no talk..
not say i'm gay or not into girls..but now the money issue is getting everywhere into my life..all of my past failures all lead to $..becos of lack of $ i miss alot of stuff..naturally now tat i have business to attend to.. i kinda happi managing the business watching $ came in but only 20% of the whole earning will be ours.. which again will be divided into all of us..around 5 ppl..money this time wasnt money..was accompiment..was something tat i hapi work for and earn ..even though i koe the sum is small..i know this is a good start to a bright future..the only drawback was...i had to skip lesson for this shit..my attendance which was already on debarment... had to take some risk ..

too mani words too little time...
i have to go shit now..
GAMBATEH $!!!

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The Vampire'a Life

timed: 6:51am

saw weepeng's tag koe i have to update my blog liao
but wth only few ppl are watching



copy tis new jay MV from mark's blog.
will try to link it up later tgt with ying's

after the opening school week...
oh man so full of shit

marks are all over my msn but for those tat nv notice
here it is:

FOOP & ACDA : 75
DEL : 59
Maths : 50
TP: 28.5/50

Some Minor School problems faced:

Intelligent Assholes
Debarment from EM3A , MATHS : 2weeks from now an interview
Late issue: will try to solve this issue by tml
I&E moduel : cannot get supplier have to look harder den usual
Maths test : in 2 weeks time, with nth in my head, i completely duno the subject
Soon to be annouce : Debarment from TP as well ..again a factor of late issue again
the Hey Gorgous shit tt will soon be on TV
yeah~ everyone is see the yandaos, the chiobus den the ugly, the fats leh? _|_ to tt show ok?

Some present surprizes :

1. Weepeng got me a HUA-AH handphone strap from taiwan Thx man =)
2. Friday Lunch i played Bball in school instead of eating like a pig
3. i pass every subject without need for re-test, tt reduce some of my shit
4. i tried SUBMARINE(tiger beer+ chivas) and got high( well at least 1 hr)
5. i got advices from taxi driver which could possiblily change my life
6. Tak's n mark's advices
7. someone from my OLD UNGRATEFUL guild add me on msn (duno how she get my email..hmm)
8. Understand more things today than ytd
9. nothing much liao everything was shit after all this


still feel crap up when i see the shitload of your blog
though i dun hate u so much now
seeing ur suffering

WAKAKAKAK!!! I AM EVIL!!
I AM A VAMPIRE!!!

was searching for jobs online
den i came across this
http://www.advertsalemedia.com/index.php?option=com_onlineads&Itemid=&scom=reg
i will reg it...right after i get my bank book no.
in the afternoon or something
later will be going out with tak/raymond they all for chilling session
yet another guy has identify me as a female person...
nb..
time to cut hair again liao lor

End of the week:

not only symbolises that
Death Note Anime has come to an end
yes yes KIRA die.. but ryukk nv write his name in the note
(is the farking mastuda go shot him lor)
epd 37

It oso says tt GST UP 1 more %
duno by year wad the GST will be high enuff to kill ppl
and our SGD exchange rate will be like
SGD = USD
wah tt time.. duno how mani singaporean gona live in bangala
due to being too poor liek myself..
with tat said.
i have to save up for the following:

**** bday : Kbox
Ying Bday : 14th july
Fynn bday : 25/26th Kbox/Sakura session

and a few minor things tat i failed to pay:

M1 fone bills: duno how much
Starhub net bills : Unknown
School fees : 90.30 must put into bank by July 7 if not another $15 fined
CPF fee: 30.XX same put into bank

always trapped in the money circle
after learning from tak
i feel i must get tt freaking license shit
and work tt profession
tt will still be long though

timed: 7:02am

duno whether i wan to slp anot
maybe not bah rot myself out now
so hot cant slp oso..
*gones*