Double Trouble
time: 11:49pm
today ran away from home went back
found out mom act normal
farking pissed
din talk to her
went out with sl,dav n pengzhi they all
mom gave $10
buy vegetable with it
post on forum
play GE
dad came back
tot he's the good guy
in the end sit down and told me about the
farking kallang shit again
told me i was selfish
fark u too asshole!
if u haven gamble so much we will land up in tis shit?
if u kena 10k u think about the family den ur shitty gamble
tis will happen?
if u haven farking get it into ur head
tt ur 57yrs old
ur already farking out and still duno how to think about the family?
fark u la hor
now u n her liao
wan to move hor?
well done
nice one hor
i guess i have to use my plan liao
i'm gona stay with yi ma they all
u all can move to kallang la hor
dun care about it liao
fark it
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Monday, June 11, 2007
MOVING?
time:4:03pm
woke up..
dad quarrel with mom
dad bang lock on door badly
and curse till he go down the lift
mom..
looking at no one to scold back
target me to scold
scold n scold n scold
den 2:00pm she went out
3:00pm she return with 2 fark heads
found out they were seeing my flat
cb knn farkheads
when i saw them i tot were relative
in the end they were flatsee-ers
cb one my mother
always do thing nv inform ppl
knn
farking pissed now
she wan move house oso nv tell me
nv inform my dad..
in the end my dad walk out of angry now i oso
at shun long house
alot of tots running in my head
why wan to move?
i tot u were the one say no $ to move one?
fark the house la got ghost issit?
got ghost bring gimme see la..nbcb
i decided not to go home today
stay outside la
fark the house..
always wan to move?
got think of my feeling mah
my school how?
my frens how?
fark the work la..
who say only farking kallang got work?
i find work for u liao now u have to do tis..
only tot about urself la nbcb
always close door windows close
u think the fish will live?
u nv take care properly the fish will live?
fark la hor
i koe u wun farking read my blog mom
so fark u
u wan to move u move la..
i will think of ways to stay in cck de
u dun fark with me can liao..
without dad approve
u oso cant move
u oso LL!
nbcb
so nice ah..arrange everything liao den
move the way u wan it isnt it?
cant u at least let me study finish ?
fark head
u wanted to move?
did u ever think of me?
for my good u move
u ever think u move to farking kallang with
farking aunties
more quarrel..
everyday see quarrel u like?
farking kallang all farking industries area u like?
den farking suits u la hor
i ain farking move
if u farking see tis..
there's a will there's a way
and i will find a way hor
farking kallang is sucide land for me
go there even got more quarrel more ppl to support u
of cos u like...
at here u have no say
at there
everyone will protect ur say..
everywhere in cck gt ghost right
so cannot stay here..
den the neighbours leh..
why they nv kena..
why they prosper more than u?
why u nv go farking think?
ah fark u la
dun ever think about moving to farking kallang bitch
cos i dun ever wan to live in tt shit i rather go jurong
or somewhere nice
nbcb
kallang u wan to move..
den u move lor
dun drag the uninterested ppl in hor
for the meanwhile
i will stay @ shunlong house for 1day or so
i koe at home when dad get back
will have war again..
but the war who create 1?
who wans to move?
i have thought about it already
u move.
i move some where else
or u move.
i quit school and move to farking place with u
=)
either one will do me no good
but is u force me one
i wun go n die..
but i will be a useless person juz like u guys
no cert
no education
duno how to read n speak english
no ppl wan u to work
u like right?
den go ahead n move
farking bitch
time:4:03pm
woke up..
dad quarrel with mom
dad bang lock on door badly
and curse till he go down the lift
mom..
looking at no one to scold back
target me to scold
scold n scold n scold
den 2:00pm she went out
3:00pm she return with 2 fark heads
found out they were seeing my flat
cb knn farkheads
when i saw them i tot were relative
in the end they were flatsee-ers
cb one my mother
always do thing nv inform ppl
knn
farking pissed now
she wan move house oso nv tell me
nv inform my dad..
in the end my dad walk out of angry now i oso
at shun long house
alot of tots running in my head
why wan to move?
i tot u were the one say no $ to move one?
fark the house la got ghost issit?
got ghost bring gimme see la..nbcb
i decided not to go home today
stay outside la
fark the house..
always wan to move?
got think of my feeling mah
my school how?
my frens how?
fark the work la..
who say only farking kallang got work?
i find work for u liao now u have to do tis..
only tot about urself la nbcb
always close door windows close
u think the fish will live?
u nv take care properly the fish will live?
fark la hor
i koe u wun farking read my blog mom
so fark u
u wan to move u move la..
i will think of ways to stay in cck de
u dun fark with me can liao..
without dad approve
u oso cant move
u oso LL!
nbcb
so nice ah..arrange everything liao den
move the way u wan it isnt it?
cant u at least let me study finish ?
fark head
u wanted to move?
did u ever think of me?
for my good u move
u ever think u move to farking kallang with
farking aunties
more quarrel..
everyday see quarrel u like?
farking kallang all farking industries area u like?
den farking suits u la hor
i ain farking move
if u farking see tis..
there's a will there's a way
and i will find a way hor
farking kallang is sucide land for me
go there even got more quarrel more ppl to support u
of cos u like...
at here u have no say
at there
everyone will protect ur say..
everywhere in cck gt ghost right
so cannot stay here..
den the neighbours leh..
why they nv kena..
why they prosper more than u?
why u nv go farking think?
ah fark u la
dun ever think about moving to farking kallang bitch
cos i dun ever wan to live in tt shit i rather go jurong
or somewhere nice
nbcb
kallang u wan to move..
den u move lor
dun drag the uninterested ppl in hor
for the meanwhile
i will stay @ shunlong house for 1day or so
i koe at home when dad get back
will have war again..
but the war who create 1?
who wans to move?
i have thought about it already
u move.
i move some where else
or u move.
i quit school and move to farking place with u
=)
either one will do me no good
but is u force me one
i wun go n die..
but i will be a useless person juz like u guys
no cert
no education
duno how to read n speak english
no ppl wan u to work
u like right?
den go ahead n move
farking bitch
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Saddness
time: 9:41pm
Was browzing through WG forum
as i got back from MIA
and i notice edison step down liao.. sian
looks like there gona be some major changes around HYPE liao
the thread tat got me looking was the Saddness thread
as the title for today is
here it goes:
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes. It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.
It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.
ever felt this way? (:
this was my respon to the thread:
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me. << kena before
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair. << kena before It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care. << kena before
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen. << kena before
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.<< kena before
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain. << kena before alot
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes. << kena before
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk. < true
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection. << agreed
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held. << i dun push
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me. << Strongly agreed
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges. << no way i'm positive
It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting. << 笑容勉强不来 , 爱深埋珊瑚海
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand. << basically 95% of humans dun understand wat i am saying 50% of the time
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most. <
If only you'd really look at me and see who I am. << "Ur fatter now!" -.-"
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away. << nv kena before
If only you'd hold me, without asking why. << din got tat chance before
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings. << once in a blue moon
Hope all of u viewing can do the same reply tis threat and post it on your own blogs
But dun use Singlish TY dun copy me
time: 9:41pm
Was browzing through WG forum
as i got back from MIA
and i notice edison step down liao.. sian
looks like there gona be some major changes around HYPE liao
the thread tat got me looking was the Saddness thread
as the title for today is
here it goes:
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me.
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair.
It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care.
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen.
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain.
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes. It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk.
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection.
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held.
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me.
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges.
It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting.
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand.
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most.
If only you'd really look at me and see who I am.
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away.
If only you'd hold me, without asking why.
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings.
ever felt this way? (:
this was my respon to the thread:
It's easier for you to walk away, than it is for you to reach out to me. << kena before
It's easier for you to look away, than it is for you to see the depth of my despair. << kena before It's easier for you to look through me, than it is for you to see "me."
It's easier for you to distance yourself, than it is for you to really care. << kena before
It's easier for you to hear, than it is for you to listen. << kena before
It's easier for you to judge, than it is for you to understand.<< kena before
It's easier for you to label, than it is to get acquainted.
It's easier for you to bask in your joy, than it is for you to feel my pain. << kena before alot
It's easier for you to bewilder at my mysteries, than it is for you to probe deeply into the depths of my soul.
It's easier for me to look away, than it is to let you see the feelings betrayed through my eyes. << kena before
It's easier for me to cry, than it is for me to talk. < true
It's easier for me to walk alone, than it is to risk rejection. << agreed
It's easier for me to push you away, than it is for me to be held. << i dun push
It's easier for me to distance myself, than it is to trust that you won´t hurt me. << Strongly agreed
It's easier for me to die, than it is for me to face life's challenges. << no way i'm positive
It's hard for me to smile when I am hurting. << 笑容勉强不来 , 爱深埋珊瑚海
It's hard for me to talk when you won't understand. << basically 95% of humans dun understand wat i am saying 50% of the time
It's hard for me to reach out when I need help the most. <
If only you'd really look at me and see who I am. << "Ur fatter now!" -.-"
If only you cared enough to reach out when I push you away. << nv kena before
If only you'd hold me, without asking why. << din got tat chance before
If only you'd acknowledge the validity of my feelings. << once in a blue moon
Hope all of u viewing can do the same reply tis threat and post it on your own blogs
But dun use Singlish TY dun copy me
Thursday, June 07, 2007
2 Days Later
time: 11:39am
i've been awake for the past 2days now
i'm going nuts
after dose and dose of coffee
i cant get to slp liao
wad is worst..
now when i try to slp
everyone around me is doing some shit tt
makes me cannot slp
minor noises..ppl snoring
wah lau eh
not angry oso angry la...
i'm so pissed now
maybe cos is 2 days nv slp
DEL : Digital Electronics Paper @ 4:00pm - 530pm
i'm afraid and know tt i wun get any rest from now...
i'm afraid my body will give up on me now..
experiencing minor cramping and lack of movement now...
my body is feeling so light..
tt it can reject my soul now..
i feel i can hit anyone and do anything
much like hostel part2
which i juz viewed in the morning
for the past few days
monday:
TP : Telecommunications Principle 4:00pm - 5:30pm ,
- said to be the killer of all subjects in my dept
- peng will assume it HIS TP
- The Lesson at class that i will always nv listen and slp throughout or play com
- the teacher using old book to teach and even older methods of teaching
- the teacher tt on concentrate on wad u do etc.(play com , talk cock) instead of the lesson more
- the subject that so far i koe 3 seniors have to retake and its their 3rd attempt
1st day to pia studies:
keep on doing past yr paper till the next day
and book room and do rest n do somemore
tuesday:
EM3A : Engineering Maths 3A 8:30am - 10:00am
- My weakest subject since Secondary School
- If peng/dav were to study tis they could own me easily
- alot of shitty formulas and alot more not shown
- The foundation in Engineering
- Probably the last Maths i'll ever study
2nd day :
5:30pm release ..6reach home
1105pm rush for the last bus to get the mac
830am exam on the next day
unable to rest till i at least can do the 1st page
dint manage to rest
wednesday :
ACDA : Analogue Circuits Design & Applications 4:00pm - 5:30pm
- foundation From AEL : Analogue Electronics
- Another Circuit drawing , Resistor calculating subject
- Probably no one failed tis subject so far
3rd day :
1130am fang
12pm went home
finally manage to rest
slept at 3
woke up at 9
and get my ass off to mac again @ 10pm tis time
thrusday (today) :
DEL : Digital Electronics 4:00pm - 5:30pm(and i still haven get some slp yet )
- I learned it in ITE so i'll have the upper hand in the front
- Easily learned by they all easily they could own me
- Mastering the 1st few chapters is sub sub water
- Interesting Lecture that i wun fall asleep on
4th day:
After 4 doses of coffee
2 dose of tea
i was unable to get sleep
and wad is worst
i'm already having voices in my head already
i am unable to do judgement on things now
becoming part time zombie now
Friday :
FOOP : Fundamentals of Object Oriented Programming 11:00am - 1230pm
- Commonly known as C#
- Foundation came from C+
- 2 page long exam paper with MCQ
- only worth 10% of the marks in the subject
- must be retaken if failed even though its worth 10% weightage
comments to myself:
CAN I EVEN LIVE TO TAKE TIS EXAM CONSIDERING THE TEMPER AND ENERGY I HAVE NOW!!!!!!
now i have recorded snoring of alvin in my fone
and they filming something really bo liao oso..
probably they will post it up on youtube like they said
time now is 12:17pm
around less than 4hours till exams
i haven started doing any revision on DEL as i tot i have the upper hand
now den i notice i have alot of enquires too
after all tis exams are over...
i resume my net liao
gona play the Granado Espada liao
hope holiday got work to do
den can pay back all my debts..
own so mani ppl $ now...
my house electri got cut again..
as usual...
and dad go and open it again as usual
we're all trapped in the rat race of bills now
i juz settled the internet bill
cos mom gave me $ to pay it
my hp is gona get cut again oso soon
they say they gona gimme untill 08june
den they cut
which is tml...
haiz i own so mani bills...
the holiday for me to work is really vital
if no work on those days..
really can go die liao
i oso wan to go out with u all
i oso wan to drink
i oso wan to chiong
i oso wan to pay for the food myself
but i cant..
den i rather not eat that much
i rather not chiong tat much
i rather not drink n go drink tapwater
no $ so stay @ home
sorry guys
but oso good no burden for u all to worry about $
and totally focus on the fun factor
i ask u to get me something when u travel
and u did and i am surprise
and i din expect that u get him too..
i guess i'm juz a doll
being used by u..
the advices that the ppl i koe gave me
all pointin to the fact tt
i must escape u using me
so i must use u 1st for now
i shall limit my help to u
and focus on U helping me
since now i know what u wan
but u had no idea wad i wan
or wad i am up to
time shall reveal all
i have no desires for ur heart now
ever since
tat day i koe i was being used purely
i know i have to koe more ppl
instead of focusing on u liao
for now ...
i only convert my anger
my vengence
my foolish
my naive natural
to study powers
i must thank u
for helping me save on books
thanks for giving them to me
and lending me those precious note of urs to me
and..AHHH wan to say wad here oso not safe
duno whose watching oso..
well
mumu:
I'll get back to u @ the holidays( hopefully)
Ur doing fine without me for the time being
u did stay positive =)
yan:
Thanks for ignoring those msg that i sent to u
and ignoring my presence
edison:
i'll get back to post on the forum ASAP
peng:
limbei ai holiday liao..
now can gay with u liao
1st thing i wan now..
KTV session u koe the place
u koe the soups
u koe the drinks
and most of all u koe the songs( or u better )
awp:
Be sure to get me some shit when u return from taiwan man
laptop:
for the past few days u have been my companion to keep me awake
myself :
DOTA 6.44b liao 6 new heroes but all like crap
cant wait for Resident Evil: Resurrection to come
now tt hostel part 2 sucks and hills have eyes 2 oso nowhere better
i wan psp . i oso wan buy mp3
but both i have no $. if got work i can combine $
with kennard to buy tt $70 5GB mp3 player ( sg.creative.com/sales)
hope DEL is easily but revision is a must
must not be too confident everytime i be
i will lose badly
though i desire girls
i still cant get it
i cant get over my low selfesteem i cant get girls
after friday i will be able to rest til god koes when
i seriously believe the study group we formed
or we the peeps in yr1 now yr2 though separated by difff class now
we still come out to study tgt
i hope tis can last till we grad
we help each other to progress
we progress as a group
not solo
not like some ppl i koe whom i lazy to name
wish me luck for DEL today and FOOP tml
*cheers*
time: 11:39am
i've been awake for the past 2days now
i'm going nuts
after dose and dose of coffee
i cant get to slp liao
wad is worst..
now when i try to slp
everyone around me is doing some shit tt
makes me cannot slp
minor noises..ppl snoring
wah lau eh
not angry oso angry la...
i'm so pissed now
maybe cos is 2 days nv slp
DEL : Digital Electronics Paper @ 4:00pm - 530pm
i'm afraid and know tt i wun get any rest from now...
i'm afraid my body will give up on me now..
experiencing minor cramping and lack of movement now...
my body is feeling so light..
tt it can reject my soul now..
i feel i can hit anyone and do anything
much like hostel part2
which i juz viewed in the morning
for the past few days
monday:
TP : Telecommunications Principle 4:00pm - 5:30pm ,
- said to be the killer of all subjects in my dept
- peng will assume it HIS TP
- The Lesson at class that i will always nv listen and slp throughout or play com
- the teacher using old book to teach and even older methods of teaching
- the teacher tt on concentrate on wad u do etc.(play com , talk cock) instead of the lesson more
- the subject that so far i koe 3 seniors have to retake and its their 3rd attempt
1st day to pia studies:
keep on doing past yr paper till the next day
and book room and do rest n do somemore
tuesday:
EM3A : Engineering Maths 3A 8:30am - 10:00am
- My weakest subject since Secondary School
- If peng/dav were to study tis they could own me easily
- alot of shitty formulas and alot more not shown
- The foundation in Engineering
- Probably the last Maths i'll ever study
2nd day :
5:30pm release ..6reach home
1105pm rush for the last bus to get the mac
830am exam on the next day
unable to rest till i at least can do the 1st page
dint manage to rest
wednesday :
ACDA : Analogue Circuits Design & Applications 4:00pm - 5:30pm
- foundation From AEL : Analogue Electronics
- Another Circuit drawing , Resistor calculating subject
- Probably no one failed tis subject so far
3rd day :
1130am fang
12pm went home
finally manage to rest
slept at 3
woke up at 9
and get my ass off to mac again @ 10pm tis time
thrusday (today) :
DEL : Digital Electronics 4:00pm - 5:30pm(and i still haven get some slp yet )
- I learned it in ITE so i'll have the upper hand in the front
- Easily learned by they all easily they could own me
- Mastering the 1st few chapters is sub sub water
- Interesting Lecture that i wun fall asleep on
4th day:
After 4 doses of coffee
2 dose of tea
i was unable to get sleep
and wad is worst
i'm already having voices in my head already
i am unable to do judgement on things now
becoming part time zombie now
Friday :
FOOP : Fundamentals of Object Oriented Programming 11:00am - 1230pm
- Commonly known as C#
- Foundation came from C+
- 2 page long exam paper with MCQ
- only worth 10% of the marks in the subject
- must be retaken if failed even though its worth 10% weightage
comments to myself:
CAN I EVEN LIVE TO TAKE TIS EXAM CONSIDERING THE TEMPER AND ENERGY I HAVE NOW!!!!!!
now i have recorded snoring of alvin in my fone
and they filming something really bo liao oso..
probably they will post it up on youtube like they said
time now is 12:17pm
around less than 4hours till exams
i haven started doing any revision on DEL as i tot i have the upper hand
now den i notice i have alot of enquires too
after all tis exams are over...
i resume my net liao
gona play the Granado Espada liao
hope holiday got work to do
den can pay back all my debts..
own so mani ppl $ now...
my house electri got cut again..
as usual...
and dad go and open it again as usual
we're all trapped in the rat race of bills now
i juz settled the internet bill
cos mom gave me $ to pay it
my hp is gona get cut again oso soon
they say they gona gimme untill 08june
den they cut
which is tml...
haiz i own so mani bills...
the holiday for me to work is really vital
if no work on those days..
really can go die liao
i oso wan to go out with u all
i oso wan to drink
i oso wan to chiong
i oso wan to pay for the food myself
but i cant..
den i rather not eat that much
i rather not chiong tat much
i rather not drink n go drink tapwater
no $ so stay @ home
sorry guys
but oso good no burden for u all to worry about $
and totally focus on the fun factor
i ask u to get me something when u travel
and u did and i am surprise
and i din expect that u get him too..
i guess i'm juz a doll
being used by u..
the advices that the ppl i koe gave me
all pointin to the fact tt
i must escape u using me
so i must use u 1st for now
i shall limit my help to u
and focus on U helping me
since now i know what u wan
but u had no idea wad i wan
or wad i am up to
time shall reveal all
i have no desires for ur heart now
ever since
tat day i koe i was being used purely
i know i have to koe more ppl
instead of focusing on u liao
for now ...
i only convert my anger
my vengence
my foolish
my naive natural
to study powers
i must thank u
for helping me save on books
thanks for giving them to me
and lending me those precious note of urs to me
and..AHHH wan to say wad here oso not safe
duno whose watching oso..
well
mumu:
I'll get back to u @ the holidays( hopefully)
Ur doing fine without me for the time being
u did stay positive =)
yan:
Thanks for ignoring those msg that i sent to u
and ignoring my presence
edison:
i'll get back to post on the forum ASAP
peng:
limbei ai holiday liao..
now can gay with u liao
1st thing i wan now..
KTV session u koe the place
u koe the soups
u koe the drinks
and most of all u koe the songs( or u better )
awp:
Be sure to get me some shit when u return from taiwan man
laptop:
for the past few days u have been my companion to keep me awake
myself :
DOTA 6.44b liao 6 new heroes but all like crap
cant wait for Resident Evil: Resurrection to come
now tt hostel part 2 sucks and hills have eyes 2 oso nowhere better
i wan psp . i oso wan buy mp3
but both i have no $. if got work i can combine $
with kennard to buy tt $70 5GB mp3 player ( sg.creative.com/sales)
hope DEL is easily but revision is a must
must not be too confident everytime i be
i will lose badly
though i desire girls
i still cant get it
i cant get over my low selfesteem i cant get girls
after friday i will be able to rest til god koes when
i seriously believe the study group we formed
or we the peeps in yr1 now yr2 though separated by difff class now
we still come out to study tgt
i hope tis can last till we grad
we help each other to progress
we progress as a group
not solo
not like some ppl i koe whom i lazy to name
wish me luck for DEL today and FOOP tml
*cheers*