time 12:42am

monday

come 730 i will wake up
and once again depart back to tekong

2weeks left to POP
once again i only can say
i will leave with regret....
lets see what i done in the army currently

Live Firing : 31/32 got marksman, no perfect shot
Field Camp: Suffered , Consispated , pumped , survived 6 Days in jungle n Urban Ops
SIT Test : Garang as a Section IC, Quiet as a team mate, wanted a simple life with no command school
Grenade : Saw Cocks hand drill grenade to sergeant , experience C4 explosion, threw live grenade
IPPT : Fitness Improved but not to targeted : Shuttle Run : 10.5secs, Sit Up: 41, 2.4KM Run: 12:02M, Pull up: ZERO , Standing Broad Jump : 197(fail)

well 2more weeks and i'll be through
2more weeks to POP
2more weeks my good allies are gona leave me
2more weeks my enemies will leave me
2more weeks to being Private
2more weeks .....

hmmm
tired...
i'm tired of waiting..
tired of anticipating
tired of organising
i'll take a back seat now
and you need me ..juz holla

i think i love this song alot
if there's anything there kept me going during my NS training
is this song...
thinking bout it
i got 5% more power

here's my power to you

hmmm
i'm back from field camp
6days of hell
hate the jungle

come out expect ppl to jio me go out once again
i was dissapointed
everyone have their own things to do bah
i am no longer
i grew tired u koe...
i oso wana come out have fun with everyone
but why issit that everytime is oso i jio ppl one?
why cant organise some FARKING SHIT FOR ME TO JOIN?
WHY DO I ALWAYS GET A "DONT KNOW GO WHERE LATER??!?!?!"
cannont juz gimme a solution
i have enough problems already

now i really find army escaping from reality
i wan to see everyone
but i guess not everyone wan to see me
other then shit replies
DELAYED PHONE CALLS
hold phone there 15min get back to me waste my phone $
is there anything that can make me more happy?
sad to say ytd i only went out with 2 guys
but at least i can say that we at least talk and they dun find it boring
i tell myself to sit back relacs and enjoy wads going on outside
wad i see is shit
i gave initiative ..i fan jian....i go call everyone
end up i still get shit replies
"dont know" "dun think free" "see how"
issit so hard to say , "on" , "steady" , "ok lor" ?
i guess i can say that when your time comes you will know .. ok?
i already compromise all i can
i hope to get understanding that i went through hell at field camp
and i really love to carry my bruised and battled body to town oso
but the crowd is not keen
if not about time then its about $

its so sad...
cant be bothered...
u wan go out then u have to jio them lor
why cannot you can jio me and tell me where to go wad to do for my only
farking precious saturday which i sit at home rot and play GTA4?
u think i like to sit at home and rot
even i got badly bruised thighs on both sides bloodied elbow,bleeding piles,heat rash all over
i still can take the pain and go out
"what cant kill you makes you stronger"
this quote from sir and lau
really make sense now..i love this word actually
if there's no display of initiative
then i say..there's no need for sign on's or leadership
juz cant be bother
ppl like me who dun wan to be the leader can lead...what bout the others?

from work till now
my offdays, my bookout days
all wasted man....a short gather will do liao..
i dun ask for me..if u all dun wan to hear wad i have to say
then its ok..i juz shutup and eat
when its your time then u will understand how i feel
live in your own world for now
for there will be a time u will come to mine
then by then i hope you guys the understand