-= Pride =-

timed: 11:08pm
just back from giving present to honey..saw her for the 1st time =/
lasted for 2seconds...
before tt..i n laurence went to sim lim square..cos he wan buy
wad..erm..3.5" harddisk case...
den we mit at cck central mah..his bus man dao...
i from my place can walk dao cck still nid wait him another 15mins -_-
so we went..and we see...den i gt abit of $ mah..i kan dao..alot of 512mmc card..
den i decide to buy lo..while still hunting for his hdd case..i shop for another item as well
earphones...i gt myself a pair of phlips earphones wif mike..designed for laptop de..
hope gt use =/
well in the end the hdd case he wan get..he didnt cause the shop closed le..
den well monday i'm following him again to there and buy his hdd case =/
pride...wad is pride? lets nt even talk about pride..
i'm just currently..living in my old shadow...
i'm nt a new man or wad...
saturday proof everything....
fiona called me out...go out wif fen n the gang..
so i invited ah zi hoping can mix teh grp ard....in the end...
i'm a terrible organiser...i mix the wrong group..i hai dao everyone who went there
make them both grps unhappy..i guess..next time..i wont be acting liek tt le
suan le...learnt a lesson..i make everyone around me..unhappy..i cause all of them..
to qian jiu me..yet..haih
timed 11:15pm
ytd will be the last presentation for the subject..
and i'm not even prepare...i'm trouble by all tis shit tt i dun even nid to think about
WHY!
i am only a shadow..of my former happy self..
i guess the word happy now...is just i'm acting crazy..
the truth is..i keep everything to myself..
if ppl are unhappy and i am..i gotta make them happy..
like how fen's fren make her happy when she's brooding in the corner...
i am all but happy..i have lost love..and soon i'm gona lose my studies...
OVER WAD am I losing all them?..WHY am i losing all them?
i dun koe...can someone tell me more...other den tt..
i thinking too much?
not much improvement was in me...
i wasnt the ..hk i wan in ITE...
i had lost to myself...i have no more happy soul....
i'm just living the days..as it is...the globe spins even when i'm dead..
why should i care?..why must i care wad i think of other ppl?
why ppl cant see tt..we all did our best to have a happy life..
yet to make other's life happy..i choose to be miserable....
oh man... i aint speaking anymore more of tis..
soon i'm gona isolate myself for a week...due to exams..
gona pia all i can..for even studies is owning me ...
if i cant study anymore..i'm be a worthless person le..
i'm not rich..i dun koe how ppl feel about me...i'm completely dumb even ppl hate me i duno
i dun "get a hint" or "take a hike"..i easily hai dao ppl i duno...
i didnt watch wad i was saying..so studies......
i guess...if after tt no more le...no more studies..i fail..
even my parents will look down on me...they dun even remember my bday le
i guess..my chun zai..is insignificant..nobody notice me..i'm juz a nobody...

- = Two Wrongs Doesnt Make One right.. = -