Hopes

time: 6.22pm

Haiz

juz explored friendster
trying to find out something
in the end
more disappointment..
wad i want
cannot get de la..
so poor..
so fat..
there are so mani more guys..
x10
x100
x1000 bette de..
i dun stand anything
why am i giving myself so mani hopes..
haiz..
now i feel more pain as reality crashes in
going to cafe del mar soon le..
stil remembering the words said ytd..
i wasnt the right company for
-_-"
i'm bad company..
last min ...so mani ppl wan to go
in the end still cancel..
but still go..still ok bah..
hope i will enjoy del mar later..
i really wish i can get myself drunk today...
i feel so painful nw..
even though its juz a picture...
i feel so pain..
i'm juz not good enuff bah..
cant even afford my own meal..
i reeally duno wad i am good at already
other then lying to myself..

time:6.27pm
wun see her @ cafe del mar
but will see her "there" soon
with her frens..
maybe i'm asking too much liao bah..
we barely koe each other..
i'm juz too psycho..