Hi Old Dusty blog :),

After 2 years,
Writing again my life story because i randomly search myself online.
Lets see...
Its a new Year : 2013 BABY!!!!!!
from my Goals in Live.
I have set and accomplished some of the goals.
It was unrealistic because theres not timeline to it, no matter! lets review it :

YOU! ---- I did not get YOU! further more we are no longer close friends
Get Really Rich -- theres no limit to this getting really rich is a statement..
CANON Digital SLR EOS -- after alot of consideration, i dont travel much to make use of this YET!
Photographer Lesson -- Since the above is not required this is not as well
Mont Blanc Pen -- Thanks to HP i have found it
Complete my NS life - Offically an NSMen with 1 cycle completed
Ipod Touch - With NS this is purchased
Nokia noncamera - As of above
Let all my Friends be happy tgt - Not really realistic
Clear my Debts - As long as in Singapore there is no end to Debts, Good Debt and Bad debt is the defining part
People owe me $ 
Get out of the Rat Race of Bills - As of above
Earn $10000 - Maybe I did? but nothing to spent or spent most on School fee
Class C Car License - MY NEW 2013 RESOLUTION
Certificate in Financial Advising - Not met
New Wallet
Diploma in Electronics and Computer Engineering
Canon IXUS 860
Citibank Credit card
Jay Chou Ellese Watch 
Playstation Portable Slim Felicia Blue / Sky Blue
LOST : Creative Zen Neon 2 

Travel to : Taiwan & Bangkok & Genting

Wow...i came back here....somehow....

the days i have during 2009 can only be describle as heaven

this is my routine

Morning : Breakfast,Morning Run
Mid Morning: PSP
Afternoon: Lunch, Radio Maintence
Mid Afternoon: PSP
Evening: Dinner, RO
Early evening: PSP
Late Evening: PSP + Watch tv
Night: PSP till Lights out

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This 2010 year will have alot of shit coming so i wun expect myself
to have so much time for psp
anyway.. Happy new year everyone
even if i did make any mistakes let it be forgiven ok?

ok...after viewing ppl blog i forgot i have to have a new year resolution or 2..or3..so here it goes

1. Finish With NS
2.Get my car license
3.Get a gf
4.Organise my family
5.Together with my frens go Taiwan

SPEED THROUGH SKILL

011109, 6:50pm

I have Pass out as a Full flagged signaller from the signal insitiute
this oso marks the end of my slack
and my future location will be in 41SAR according to encik philip

i face alot of money problems in between this 2 weeks
and alot of things were put to the test on regarding i can handle them
- my dad fainted and went to hospital i had to apply urgent leave
- upon visiting him i only have $5
- have to get him a packet of roasted pork and char siew $4
- left $1 for myself
if laurence wasnt ava. that i would have suffer quite alot
and feel more like shit..
- after meeting him and he help me top up my card
- lunch on him man...i'm farkup broke till no pride -.-

Pride - People Rest I Do Extra

i will repay him someday, this i say
maybe this is oso something that let me see the true face of ppl?
when u no $ in a crisis..who are those who are really willing to help u?
or who are those who act blur ..or worst dun even care
i know i put in effort for alot of things
- YOUR birthday
- my 2.4KM - 13:59 to 12:45 to 11:05 to 10:58
even though my spent my pay all of it one shot one day
i felt its worth it?
nahhh i dun even koe now lol...
well at least not all goes into the drain

but i feel that you are those..
u said about money making you happy
to me it is 60% to you bah?
maybe a $450 wallet and a pair of pigs
could make you happier than
a...half fark..poor ass guy who cant even afford his topup card
the odds are there liao

becos of this i dun wan to leave poor
i wan to complete my ns life
and i wan to earn alots of money
so this 2 years wun be wasted

well well well
finally have the time to do alittle chitchat

today is sunday
for the coming 5 weeks i am posted to Stagmont camp
i am in the Signals Insitute (SI)
one of the LTC say we are very lucky
cos its SI(Sleeping Insitute)
well i guess i juz have to enjoy this 6weeks course . after that
wadever is heading next is another mystery.
guoquan my Quecbac company buddy who is in the same bunk with me from then
is in same bunk with me when we arrive at signals
but he will OOC on monday due to back problems
Bun Chin went to OCS
my buddy Kenny went to Sispec
more or less most of platoon 3 ppl went to command school
i do have regrets that i'm not with them
i mean ..even if its the toughest shit we'll ever face
as long as we're tgt we can always face it no matter wad
we been through thick and thin during BMT
this journey is etched my memory
even after i ORD i will always remmeber the times we had in BMT
AND THE CHALET of cos isnt it LT Toh? lol

regrets..i do have alot of regrets in my life
even after entering army i have regrets
that i dint chiong during BMT so i did not manage to go command school
regrets..LT Wiggy said..do the best u can..make sure u dun have any regrets
i have some...but i will nv forget our time in BMT

i notice..even in my dreams..i have regrets..
i had a dream ytd ..there's this girl..duno who she is...
maybe i juz know her..talk to her awhile in the dream..notice i like her..
and she wan my number..i was like..wtf...and i woke up..

NS ..a period where despo rates goes up
Self-Control, Self Discipline is even more needed
yes i hate to see YOU with that guy
yes..i hate to see ppl lovey dovey
i hate my ex love life..
all this flashbacks...

"i only i want to finish my NS for now Nth else" i said
"you are trying to do only that i can tell" peiying said
"you dun care also nevermind"laurence said
"you thinking too much" awp said
i cannot forget my past..neither can i take the future...
ns is really a way for me to escape ..
escape reality
escape family problems
escape friends cant get along problems
escape money problem
escape...

its really quite hard to share problems..
i oso dun quite know who i can share this shit with..
i wana show concern..
i wan my friends
but do they want each other? answers lies with them
i will as usual organise events so we can hang out regulary
i notice i am not fan jian asking a girl out
its is my responsibility to .
so i should plan better
give me time ok?
i..like you..
i still do...
maybe i should ask again..
do u feel something about me?
am i one of those that change your life?
haha...

i guess..i only can give answers
but not so soon
we are friends after all =)
as friends we remain..in the grey area?
when u need me
only when u need me u can depend on me
when i need you
i only can hope u will be there for me too..
guess too much to wish for haha

looking at my Goals in life i need to update them liao by the time u read till here
maybe u can see my Goals in life too

book in timing : 2130
location of camp: 2 blocks away from my house

Comd SAF BMTC wishes you all the best in your future posting.

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1. You are posted to SIG INSTITUTE.
2. Your vocation is SIG OPR - INFOCOMM2.
3. Your are to report to: Stagmont Camp, BLK 207, RM #02-16.
Reporting Date/Time: 22/09/2009 at 0930 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Co

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18th sept i must login here

for now POP LO!!!!!

090909 marks the end of my BMT life
and 20th i must prepare for the new unit liao